Inspiration, Lifestyle

Creativity & Its Worst Enemy Ever, Burnout (Also: I’m On Hiatus)

Some people see hiatuses as big no-nos.

I know the feeling well. Post views go down, followers stop filing in, and those oh-so-perfectly planned posts are left sitting unread in the draft folder. All the things we’re working for are kinda tossed out the window.

Well, I’m taking a hiatus. It’s pretty nervewracking, but, more than that, it’s badly needed.

I’ve been thinking a lot about productivity and what keeps people from accomplishing their goals lately, and creative burnout has been at the front of my mind. It’s this really stupid feeling of not being able to create anything for a variety of reasons. And I’ve caught the bug. *miffed look*

Burnout isn’t something talked enough about here on the blogosphere or anywhere in the writing world, really. It causes so much damage, but a lot of people don’t notice the pattern they’re going through: creativity rises and rises, falls dramatically, then rises again. A tiring loop, over and over.

So let’s be the ones to talk about it.

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Creativity is kind of a dangerous thing. Do people realize how much we put on the line for the things we love? Time, money, a reliable job. Not to mention how easily the rug can be pulled out from under us. So many things can go wrong.

Burnouts are inevitable and somewhat common for us. You hear about writer’s block all the time, and of course, we play it up with the stereotypical “starving creative” character in media. Because the creator girls in the Hallmark movies are depressed and don’t have any ideas ’till she meets the guy, right?

Unfortunately, I think we’re a lot more complicated than the Hallmark girls are. Creatives are counter-intuitive creatures sometimes. Creativity is hindered by… well, creativity. There are ideas engulfing us, keeping us up till two in the morning until we give in. Sometimes, new ideas keep us from unfinished work, and clouds our view. All the activity gathers more and more pressure.

This is the point where we need to take a break. Actually, we nEED HELP HAHAH.

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The worst part of everything is… we can’t. We don’t want to quit. I hate taking leave of my blog or writing or anything artsy. I feel like my audience has been let down and I’m not making the impact that I should be making on the world. Because that’s what I’m here to do: make an impact in the heart of people who read my words. And by letting them down, I’m not satisfied with myself.

So we keep going. We push our luck, our limits, and our sanity. More words. More posts. More likes, more views, more comments. We can’t stop glaring at our screens, waiting for the day when we’re gonna get back on track. It’s only a matter of time. Just a few more posts. Just a few more. Keep going, keep going, keep–

Until it all comes crashing down.

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me @ life
me @ creative burnout… 😛

A creative’s biggest calling is to make something of ourselves in the world, and when we’re not seeing the results we want, we feel worthless and confused. Sometimes, I’ll hit a wall and question why I’m a creative in the first place.

Why do I think I can write?

Why did I start a blog when I’m set to fail?

I should just quit and make better use of my time.

Yeah, fun times.

Burnout is the reason why 97% of started novels don’t reach their end. It’s why bloggers quit a few months into the game. It’s why I’ve never put in the real time and dedication to completing an original book front to back.

I’d like to think of burnouts as power outages. Power outlets work just fine, supplying energy to everything it’s connected to, but when a major spike in energy? The whole system brakes down, and you’ve got to go reset the system.* Just like you’ve got to find a way to reset after there’s a burnout.

I really would like to end this post with a helpful step-by-step guide about how to overcome or even avoid burnout, because, haha, I don’t know how to do that. At all. I’m basically an expert at burning out, but I somehow I maintain my determination for this blog and come back every time.

From what I’ve learned, it all depends on how much you love something that determines if you can fully stay or leave. I’ve tried to stop writing before, which didn’t last more than a week. Quitting this blog has passed my mind once or twice, but I enjoy it, however many times I feel hopeless. Burnouts are nothing compared to a true calling. Just grab onto the things you feel lead to accomplish and hold them tight.


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So I wrote this whole post off the fact that I made a spur-of-the-moment decision to skip town for a little bit. As you can probably tell, I have no idea what I’m doing. yes i am very professional

In all seriousness, I wasn’t planning on taking a break until December, but, the truth is, I really need a break now. My priorities have taken a quick turn as I begin a new season of my life, and I’m feeling pretty close to a creative breakdown. Thankfully, writing this post has helped me a lot and I’m headed for a really relaxing-looking break for a few weeks.

That being said, thank you to everyone who’s read this whole post. You’re either (1. an OG When Words Fly fan, (2. a really patient friend, or (3. struggling with the same thing I am. I love allllll of you so much and it tears me up to delay my posts, but hopefully I’ll be returning with fun, meaningful content! ❤

love you more than jay walker himself (which is shockingly possible),

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22 thoughts on “Creativity & Its Worst Enemy Ever, Burnout (Also: I’m On Hiatus)”

  1. Yeeeessss! I NEEDED this today, Abby! Thank you so much! And yes, I’m a major fan of your blog, and Jay Walker, and those gifs, and everything you just said. Especially the part of about trying to make an impact on the world, I feel that a lot. I just have to make myself write sometimes, and I’m doing that today. Thank you!!

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  2. Oh gosh. I relate so much. Almost every other sentence I’ve been nodding my head and muttering half-coherently in agreement, because what you described here fits my situation several months ago PERFECTLY. Down to every minute detail.

    It’s sad that this kind of stuff isn’t addressed more, because I think it’s way more prevalent than anybody wants to admit. I certainly didn’t want to tell anybody that the thought of grinding out yet ANOTHER blog post made me want to throw a chair out a window. I didn’t think that was normal. I thought it was some sign that I just wasn’t as good as everyone else, and didn’t have the stamina to keep anything going longer than a year. Fortunately though, taking a break really DOES refresh the mental juices and restore creativity, so I wish you Godspeed on your hiatus and I hope it won’t be too long before the burnout starts to fade. I’ll miss your posts, but believe me, I TOTALLY understand.

    Have a wonderful break!! (But, ya know, don’t have TOO much fun without us… 😉

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    1. aww, sarah! i read your comment before i left and it really, really encouraged me. i soooo agree (especially the trowing a chair out the window part, that’s downright relatable) and you’re totally right, i’m coming back better than before! makes awkward superhero pose

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  3. I hope you have a great hiatus, and return refreshed and not burned out anymore, Abby! Creativity burnout happens to everyone, and I think you’re right and a hiatus is the best way to nip it in the bud. 🙂 I’LL MISS YOU AND YOUR POSTS THOUGH

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  4. AWW NO NOT AGAIN 😵😵

    Consult Baymax, he is your personal healthcare companion now…..and prob good at stories and stuff so..yeah….REMEMBER THE RACHMANINOFF STORY✌👋

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