Creativity & Its Worst Enemy Ever, Burnout (Also: I’m On Hiatus)

Some people see hiatuses as big no-nos.

I know the feeling well. Post views go down, followers stop filing in, and those oh-so-perfectly planned posts are left sitting unread in the draft folder. All the things we’re working for are kinda tossed out the window.

Well, I’m taking a hiatus. It’s pretty nervewracking, but, more than that, it’s badly needed.

I’ve been thinking a lot about productivity and what keeps people from accomplishing their goals lately, and creative burnout has been at the front of my mind. It’s this really stupid feeling of not being able to create anything for a variety of reasons. And I’ve caught the bug. *miffed look*

Burnout isn’t something talked enough about here on the blogosphere or anywhere in the writing world, really. It causes so much damage, but a lot of people don’t notice the pattern they’re going through: creativity rises and rises, falls dramatically, then rises again. A tiring loop, over and over.

So let’s be the ones to talk about it.

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Creativity is kind of a dangerous thing. Do people realize how much we put on the line for the things we love? Time, money, a reliable job. Not to mention how easily the rug can be pulled out from under us. So many things can go wrong.

Burnouts are inevitable and somewhat common for us. You hear about writer’s block all the time, and of course, we play it up with the stereotypical “starving creative” character in media. Because the creator girls in the Hallmark movies are depressed and don’t have any ideas ’till she meets the guy, right?

Unfortunately, I think we’re a lot more complicated than the Hallmark girls are. Creatives are counter-intuitive creatures sometimes. Creativity is hindered by… well, creativity. There are ideas engulfing us, keeping us up till two in the morning until we give in. Sometimes, new ideas keep us from unfinished work, and clouds our view. All the activity gathers more and more pressure.

This is the point where we need to take a break. Actually, we nEED HELP HAHAH.

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The worst part of everything is… we can’t. We don’t want to quit. I hate taking leave of my blog or writing or anything artsy. I feel like my audience has been let down and I’m not making the impact that I should be making on the world. Because that’s what I’m here to do: make an impact in the heart of people who read my words. And by letting them down, I’m not satisfied with myself.

So we keep going. We push our luck, our limits, and our sanity. More words. More posts. More likes, more views, more comments. We can’t stop glaring at our screens, waiting for the day when we’re gonna get back on track. It’s only a matter of time. Just a few more posts. Just a few more. Keep going, keep going, keep–

Until it all comes crashing down.

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me @ life

me @ creative burnout… 😛

A creative’s biggest calling is to make something of ourselves in the world, and when we’re not seeing the results we want, we feel worthless and confused. Sometimes, I’ll hit a wall and question why I’m a creative in the first place.

Why do I think I can write?

Why did I start a blog when I’m set to fail?

I should just quit and make better use of my time.

Yeah, fun times.

Burnout is the reason why 97% of started novels don’t reach their end. It’s why bloggers quit a few months into the game. It’s why I’ve never put in the real time and dedication to completing an original book front to back.

I’d like to think of burnouts as power outages. Power outlets work just fine, supplying energy to everything it’s connected to, but when a major spike in energy? The whole system brakes down, and you’ve got to go reset the system.* Just like you’ve got to find a way to reset after there’s a burnout.

I really would like to end this post with a helpful step-by-step guide about how to overcome or even avoid burnout, because, haha, I don’t know how to do that. At all. I’m basically an expert at burning out, but I somehow I maintain my determination for this blog and come back every time.

From what I’ve learned, it all depends on how much you love something that determines if you can fully stay or leave. I’ve tried to stop writing before, which didn’t last more than a week. Quitting this blog has passed my mind once or twice, but I enjoy it, however many times I feel hopeless. Burnouts are nothing compared to a true calling. Just grab onto the things you feel lead to accomplish and hold them tight.


*is this how electricity works?? i… i don’t know, i’m not sciencey 😮dividerflat pink

So I wrote this whole post off the fact that I made a spur-of-the-moment decision to skip town for a little bit. As you can probably tell, I have no idea what I’m doing. yes i am very professional

In all seriousness, I wasn’t planning on taking a break until December, but, the truth is, I really need a break now. My priorities have taken a quick turn as I begin a new season of my life, and I’m feeling pretty close to a creative breakdown. Thankfully, writing this post has helped me a lot and I’m headed for a really relaxing-looking break for a few weeks.

That being said, thank you to everyone who’s read this whole post. You’re either (1. an OG When Words Fly fan, (2. a really patient friend, or (3. struggling with the same thing I am. I love allllll of you so much and it tears me up to delay my posts, but hopefully I’ll be returning with fun, meaningful content! ❤

love you more than jay walker himself (which is shockingly possible),

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